This is a test. I'm not really sure if I'm gonna put this out in the public, as I want this to be a place where I can vent freely, and I don't want anyone reading that for my privacy (and I can get pretty graphic with my vents, so I don't want to trigger anyone).

The entry below is just the lyrics to one of my favorite songs of all time.

Last night I found heaven. It was on the tip of my tongue, and it reminded me of all the times I was young; of catching rain in my open mouth. I used to smile until the day I found out. I have no idea who the hell I've become, it's not who I was, it's not who I loved.

I want to drown in a sea filled with Novocaine, I wanna burn on a beach where the sand has thousands of needles poking at my skin.

I lie in bed to the sound of the wolves at my door. They are speaking in tongues, holding court on my floor. I never thought it would come to this, I'm more yellow than my own piss. They're making rounds just to even the score. "Just open the door, just open the door."

I wanna drown in a sea filled with Novocaine. I wanna burn on a beach where the sand is littered with razor blades; littered with razor blades. Blades, littered with razor blades.

I can't hold on, the path is clear. I can't ignore, what's been building for years. There's wolves at the door, I won't hide here in fear, wolves at the door.

I look at myself and the things that I've done, Step away from the mirror and into the sun. I forgive myself for all of my mistakes. When will I learn? When will I, when will I burn?

I wanna drown in a sea filled with Novocaine. I wanna burn on a beach where the sand is littered with razor blades; littered with razor blades. Blades, littered with razor blades.

I gave up on myself a long time ago, the black clouds they swallowed and spit me out whole.

Sometimes it feels like I'm losing my soul,

at least that means,

I still have a soul left to lose.